By J.J. Tindall
Fresh Hell
Harried voices hurtle
Down my back walkway
Like dice tumbling
From a Yahtzee cup.
Between the bricks
Of this century-old multi-unit
Fortress
And the wood fence along the garden
Is a corridor of echoes.
Night itself makes a third wall
Off which the voices bounce,
Fervent conversations scored
Abstractly by radiators,
Clonking pipes and
Hissing valves undergirding
Ominous narratives.
Like a carillon of broken bells,
Or like dialogue
In a Robert Altman movie:
You have to concentrate
Hard on specific lines, and
You miss stuff.
Often, you find
You want to miss stuff.
Often, what you hear
Is old hell: scorned lovers, spurned
Suitors, scammed marks,
Improbable revenge plots.
And, of course, longing.
Not just for love but specifically
Fresh love, new love,
Surprise love.
Whatever love they may have
Is no longer
Enough.
Old heaven isn’t
Enough.The demands
Are ever
For fresh heaven.
Dots on a die:
Words, phrases, ejaculations
That continue bounding
Down the dark corridor.
Life on a grid: concave alleys,
Convex avenues, bike lanes, phone lines,
Long trains, short ramps,
A singular acoustics.
Sound is channeled like rain
Along wood, steel,
Asphalt and concrete,
In crescendos and
Diminuendos, waves
Along a beach
Of granite.
Lord: the talk
Is tense, there is tension
In the atmosphere, every atom of it,
Longing for a lucky roll,
Straight sixes, “Yahtzee!”
Ding! Ding! Ding!
Longing to banish
The last bad run,
The latest pain
Lingering, yearning
For some corrupt god’s favor,
For just one goddam
Lucky break,
Like overhearing
Someone new say
They love you!
Fat chance: odds are
Fresh hell
Is all that truly blunts
Any old hell,
That latest pain-wrought bell, plastic
Tongue battering
The side of a cheap
Brown paper cup, no note,
No tone, just a brittle clonk.
No one new
Just said
They love you.
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J.J. Tindall is the Beachwood’s poet-in-residence. He welcomes your comments. Chicagoetry is an exclusive Beachwood collection-in-progress.
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Posted on April 9, 2017